Another Rough Weekend

Well, still no job for hubs and it has begun to take it’s toll. I spent all day in emergency with hubby who had a major anxiety attack where he could not breathe, nor even walk! This is a man who has never experienced anything like this, and he is beginning to once again suffer severe migraines which he has been free of for many years now. Since my health has deteriorated more this year, it has taken a double toll for him because he worries about me so much. I try to keep things to myself, but he tells me my eyes are the windows into what is going on with me. Think I will wear sunglasses in the house now….

Money is extremely tight, and even though I have never taken anything for granted, I am even more in tune with what people should appreciate every day of their life. Lights, gas, phone, food….you know the essentials….which is now considered in our household….”perks”.

Our list is doing wonderfully, and lucky I am not needed, so I am what you would call the silent partner now and stay in the background. Les has been my support and my leaning post for some time now, God bless her…. I don’t think the list would survive without her. If there is one bright spot, it is that CQ4N which Les and I worked so hard for is a happy place for the girls and is a place where they will find support and compassion for whatever is going on in their lives, from having stitchers block to something personal. I miss the days when I was a large part of the group, but life in more ways then one, has taken its toll on me and has changed me into someone I don’t recognize anymore. I have been through a lot of hell in my life, and always came up for air, but I’m tired now and just want peace.

Back On Line

For the moment anyway... I was going to delete my blog, but at least I can vent on here, even if I am talking to myself, I have an outlet.

Things have not improved here, and now that hubs has been laid off, the situation seems to go from bad to worse. We are fighting to save our home which we have worked on so hard, and it seems when the fan hits, it hits hard. He has sent out over 100 resumes and I think his age is against him. Though it is illegal to discriminate against age, they work around that. I wish he could retire and if it were not for the mortgage I would insist on him doing that. We thought about selling the house, but with the industry at the moment, that would be like getting into another hornets nest. There are several homes on our street that have been foreclosed on, and it is really sad to see these people lose everything they have worked for.... Figures it's California...... I would love nothing better then to pack it in, leave this miserable state of California (which I have never acclimated to and/or ever liked other then the summer nights) and move somewhere out in the country with lots of land and once again be able to have my horses and my solitude which I miss so much.

I have no desire to stitch and have had none for awhile now and don't know if I ever will unless God steps in with a miracle, but miracles don't happen in my household. It is similar to trying to crawl out of a sand pit but the sand keeps falling on our heads..

Season to Season Summer and Comments

I forgot to take a picture of the work I did on Cindy's summer block, and grabbed this picture from the photo section of our list. I can't remember what the heck I did on it, so you will have to guess.

Things have not been good on the homestead but I'm use to it. Health is getting worse and other serious issues have taken place here. Anyway, this will be my last post on the blog, and then I will be deleting it. I will finish up with my obligations, and that will be it for this girl in the CQ genre and will be putting down the needle. I will still help Lesa with the list, but have too much on my plate to get involved with swaps and RR's and other things.




The other thing is my feelings about what I write about are my feelings, and have nothing to do with anyone else or what they feel is correct or not. If something upsets me, then I will state that it upsets me. Life is not all about CQ, and since this is my blog, then I will post what I feel is important to me, or upsets me. Politics are just as important if not more then CQ in my life, I wish I could just shrug my shoulders and say "oh well"...must get that block finished". I don't think that way, nor do I expect people to "tell" me not to think that way thanks. I've seen other people's blogs and their rants about something that has upset them, or if they feel they have been slighted by something or someone. I don't comment about it either way. I just figure they are upset and have a right to feel that way, I don't walk in their shoes. I expect the same courtesy without telling me what I should feel.

Our Allies

I never in my life realized how we as Americans are viewed by the European people until I happened upon a British site. Our "Allies" (Britain) are the worst when it comes to insults, dehumanization and the foul words that come from their mouths when they are posting to Americans. They blame us for every single thing that has gone wrong in their country. They feel we as Americans are beneath them and I have read with my own eyes from several British posters the wish for the total annihilation of our country and our people. These are our allies? The friendship that once was there is no longer. I am going to give you a prime example of what some of my American friends have had thrown at them on a daily basis. Please note, I have deleted or changed some extremely vulgar words on some of these posts. There are some I would not put on here because of the horrible things said (i.e. we breed with our own people, we are a nation which sleeps with our brothers and sisters, etc) and that I even diluted down. Oh and by the way, we are known as Septic Tanks to the British. As you can see by the following posts, it would be nice if instead of berating us, they would learn how to spell properly and use proper punctuation. And I did not post what they have said about our boys and girls that are over in Iraq, although the last post can give you an idea of what is said about those who are fighting to keep these people free. This is just a small sampling of what I have read, on one thread!!!! This is nothing to what I read by a lot of other British posters. I am thoroughly disgusted.

you demonstrate everything thats gone wrong in this world! we pitty you coz you have no culture, coz your stupid,coz your all brainwashed and have no freedom!your almost as bad as the islamic extremists with your goverment propaganda and the whole fakeness about your country!

Superpower my A$$!!! if the EU goes ahead as planned it will completley domminate the US in every way shape and form Economically,in millitary and in general world affairs!its inevitable!(thats if the chinese don't overtake you before then)face it the future of your country is doomed.you've relied on pure manpower and finances all these years,and soon the world will realise that all americans are thick,fat and stupid!

funny when you tell these septics how it is they havn't got much to say back!

who's got a problem with who exactly? yea i think americans are thick,ignorant,weak and incompetant and i leave them to live in micky mouse land and go about my normal business. your obviously insecure about yourselfs and fellow countrymen if you have to come on here promoting your s**thole of a country and trying discredit our glorious country.get a life for f**k sake it must be early hours of the morning over there and your on your computer with nothing better to do(f***ing geeks).i bet your not evan accepted by your own people which is why the only relationship you have is with a computer!

Blame Europe, Blame the Middle east, Blame Russia....Blame who the f*ck you want but Monkey-Boy Dubya and the Neo-Conmen are the f*ckers turning the world against you guys.

however we must thank the dumb septics for helping us with the war on terror.
coz if they hadn't of funded the IRA for so many years we wouldn't know how to deal with terrorism now would we!

go back to stuffing your face with burgers you fat dickheads,and don't hate on us coz you have no culture(or a brain cell between you)

unworkable,impossible,time to go much too valuable to be talking to yanky doodle inbreds,enjoy each other,the cellars are calling for you all,nite filthy yanks.

OMG the best of americans look at you fools why don't you take a permanent sleep

pull the picture,I have the stomach for it now,as all yankie cancer looks the same now.

whats the difference between americans and toast?
you can make soilders out of toast!

Can I Have a Break Now?

It has been awhile since posting, but life sometimes dishes up some nasty food.. My lovely step-daughter is in the hospital, we got hit with taxes that make me cringe everytime I think of it, and my beautiful Ragdoll Sydney died suddenly overnight. He was healthy, and was perfectly fine the day before. I saw him eating when I went to bed and woke up to find out my baby had left me in his sleep.

Rest my baby boy you are now with the angels.

Thread Painting

Here is a picture of the birds that I am working on out of Helen Stevens book. Though not as perfect as hers are, the more I practice the more control I am having over the threads. Once I purchase a hoop stand it will allow my hands more freedom to work and control the threads. Some people can pick up that long and short stitch easily, however for some reason it eludes me. I sent Judy a site called Berlin Embroidery which sells kits for this type of work. Her work is stunning and the projects she has done look like a real picture. The stitches on some of the animals actual look like fur and/or feathers. While Helen Steven's books are easier for someone like me, I hope to eventually graduate to this type of work. Check out her commission work and you will be amazed at how beautiful this type of stitching is. Though it is not very popular among a lot of stitchers, I think this type of work can be incorporated into CQ.

New Book

I just received my copy of Helen Steven's Embroidered Gardens. I love this ladies work and have been collecting her books for the past several months. I have been getting more into thread painting lately, as it is so relaxing and the end effect is beautiful. Here are some pics from the book so you can get an idea of her work.







Also wanted to share a picture of my Shasta Daisy in full bloom. These guys bloom almost all summer and right now they are really showy.